That is a good question. My definition of awesome tends to vary a bit. At one point, awesome would have included having a latte at Starbucks, while now that is just something run of the mill.
What I may end up with is doing fun stuff that I have never done / have always wanted to do, and deciding if it is awesome afterwards.
Things that are currently floating through my mind include: * Learning to meditate / Tai Chi. * A proper, planned holiday, rather than just burning holiday time (Canada, road trip through America). * Going out to serious events (opera, sending Susan to the Black Cat cabaret). * Drawing / painting a proper picture. * Making something physical (http://www.demifashions.com/ tempts me). * Possibly a new job, though I'm not really sure that there are that many jobs that could count as awesome.
The major problem with the going out events is that, for me at least, they really require a partner in crime to get the best out of them. Not a boyfriend / girlfriend, just a friend.
Speaking about girlfriends, I don't think that getting one comes under this idea - I don't think I have the sort of personality that could support that type of a relationship.
The black cat cabaret is a weekly cabaret show held at the Cafe de Paris in London (http://www.theblackcat.info and http://www.cafedeparis.com/club/black-cat-cabaret). Fancy going?
The last statement was about my ability / desire to have a girlfriend. Looking back, I have had, at most, 2 girlfriends, one of which was (sort of, if it was) a very short primary school crush, and the other was really more a case of she saw that I would be useful, and so she moved in on me.
When it comes to emotions, I always feel a bit short changed on them - rarely other than "meh", no massive enthusiasm, occasional moments with the black dog, no love, just vague liking, just floating along. I occasionally wonder if there is something wrong with me, not enough to cause visible problems, but enough to make me different. Whenever I do those online autism / Aspergers tests, I always end up with the "Well, we're not going to actually say yes, but ..." result.
I suspect that it's far too late to change that, though I shall see what I can do with what I have.
I also think that the abstract question of "do I want to have a girlfriend?" (or, indeed, boyfriend) is a very different experience from "do I want to be with this person?", when somebody actually shows up.
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What I may end up with is doing fun stuff that I have never done / have always wanted to do, and deciding if it is awesome afterwards.
Things that are currently floating through my mind include:
* Learning to meditate / Tai Chi.
* A proper, planned holiday, rather than just burning holiday time (Canada, road trip through America).
* Going out to serious events (opera, sending Susan to the Black Cat cabaret).
* Drawing / painting a proper picture.
* Making something physical (http://www.demifashions.com/ tempts me).
* Possibly a new job, though I'm not really sure that there are that many jobs that could count as awesome.
The major problem with the going out events is that, for me at least, they really require a partner in crime to get the best out of them. Not a boyfriend / girlfriend, just a friend.
Speaking about girlfriends, I don't think that getting one comes under this idea - I don't think I have the sort of personality that could support that type of a relationship.
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I am puzzled by the last sentence. Not the right personality for a girlfriend, or not the right personality to do awesome stuff with one?
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The last statement was about my ability / desire to have a girlfriend. Looking back, I have had, at most, 2 girlfriends, one of which was (sort of, if it was) a very short primary school crush, and the other was really more a case of she saw that I would be useful, and so she moved in on me.
When it comes to emotions, I always feel a bit short changed on them - rarely other than "meh", no massive enthusiasm, occasional moments with the black dog, no love, just vague liking, just floating along. I occasionally wonder if there is something wrong with me, not enough to cause visible problems, but enough to make me different. Whenever I do those online autism / Aspergers tests, I always end up with the "Well, we're not going to actually say yes, but ..." result.
I suspect that it's far too late to change that, though I shall see what I can do with what I have.
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