New years resolution

[scallan]

I think I have finally come up with my new years resolution: "Do awesome shit".

So what awesome shit should I do?

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[widgetfox.livejournal.com]

These do all sound like very awesome things. What is the black cat cabaret?

I am puzzled by the last sentence. Not the right personality for a girlfriend, or not the right personality to do awesome stuff with one?

[nallac.livejournal.com]

The black cat cabaret is a weekly cabaret show held at the Cafe de Paris in London (http://www.theblackcat.info and http://www.cafedeparis.com/club/black-cat-cabaret). Fancy going?

The last statement was about my ability / desire to have a girlfriend. Looking back, I have had, at most, 2 girlfriends, one of which was (sort of, if it was) a very short primary school crush, and the other was really more a case of she saw that I would be useful, and so she moved in on me.

When it comes to emotions, I always feel a bit short changed on them - rarely other than "meh", no massive enthusiasm, occasional moments with the black dog, no love, just vague liking, just floating along. I occasionally wonder if there is something wrong with me, not enough to cause visible problems, but enough to make me different. Whenever I do those online autism / Aspergers tests, I always end up with the "Well, we're not going to actually say yes, but ..." result.

I suspect that it's far too late to change that, though I shall see what I can do with what I have.

[widgetfox.livejournal.com]

I also think that the abstract question of "do I want to have a girlfriend?" (or, indeed, boyfriend) is a very different experience from "do I want to be with this person?", when somebody actually shows up.